•remus is this wonderful mix of spontaenity and knowing when to slow down and enjoy the moment
• he’s so much fun to be with because one day, he’ll whisk you away to the countryside for a picnic and the next, he’ll force you to wear his sweater and lay inside all day
•you‘re with him during every full moon even though he refuses because there’s no way you’re letting him go it alone
•post-transformation cuddles while he recovers
•library dates!!
•while you’re reading, remus will sneak glances at you because how did this boy get so lucky to have you
•you noticing him glancing at you so you reach over to hold his hand
• bribing the house elves in the kitchen to whip y’all up some extra snacks
• him constantly looking at you with this loveridden expression that makes you smile to yourself
• james and sirius won’t stop teasing you
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“get a room, you two!” “yeah, that’s absolutely abbhorent”
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“boys, remus and i are on opposite ends of the room”
• remus is not excessive on PDA and actually prefers simple hand holding and occasional kisses.
• huge on acts of service and will do anything and everything for you
• remus is your biggest supporter. anything you try, he’s there to encourage you
• the boy really enjoys words of affirmation so if you even just call him pretty, he gets this really big grin on his face and it stays there for the entire day
• puts everything you’ve ever told him about yourself to good use. favorite food? you’ll see it at the next picnic
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that flower you walked past yesterday that caught your eye? cue remus standing at your door absolutely soaked because he got caught stealing it from someone’s garden and they hit him with the sprinklers
• dating remus is 11/10 and you wouldn’t want anyone else by your side
A/N: ok so i really tried to format the paragraphs like the anon suggested where a new paragraph starts when each character speaks, but im not really comfortable with it and i feel like this turned out bad so i sincerely apologize
warning(s): not really any, i think??
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Remus isn’t sure what he should say to her. How to explain to her the complex situation he’s in. The voice of doubt lingers in the back of his mind, but he decides to ignore it because [Y/N] is far too important.
“Why did you ask me to come out here, Remus?” she inquires softly, her hands shoved into her jacket pockets.
It’s been a few weeks since the breakup and the weather has turned freezing, prompting every student at Hogwarts to don their jumpers. Remus didn’t bother with one, though. He subconsciously believes that he deserves every bit of pain he gets and if that means risking hypothermia then so be it.
“I… I wanted to apologize about hurting you before.” he murmurs, his eyes looking directly at hers. He didn’t really plan to start out with that, but it is part of what he wanted to say. “It was inconsiderate of me to breakup with you like that. You deserve better.”
[Y/N]’s eyes soften slightly and she’s silent. Remus assumes she’s going to start yelling or get upset. He takes a moment to listen to the wind whistling through the trees. It’s just enough sound to distract him for a moment. Just enough to make him feel at peace.
It’s broken, however, when [Y/N] finally responds. “Look, Remus. Yes, it hurt when you broke up with me. I loved you.” She makes sure he’s looking directly at her. “I still do.” she murmurs so softly, Remus almost didn’t hear it. He says nothing and lets her continue.
“But what hurts more is that I don’t know why. I’ve spent the last few weeks asking myself if I did anything wrong or what you could possibly be hiding. It hurts because EVERYONE knows except me.” Remus’s heart aches when he notices her glassy eyes.
[Y/N] rubs them quickly as if they were never teary in the first place. Her voice raises as she becomes more emotional. “I tried to be understanding and respect that you have things you need to keep from me, but I’ve seen you come back with cuts and bruises, Remus! You have new scars that you look at during class and then you start tearing up and it breaks my heart because I know I can’t do anything to help you!”
Remus feels a familiar lump in his throat and he has to swallow it back or else it will come out as a small sob. His vision becomes blurry, but he ignores it. “I know it must have been very difficult on you and I’m so sorry for saying I don’t love you and putting you through all of that.”
[Y/N] crosses her arms and stares at the ground. “It’s still difficult on me.” she whispers. She takes a moment to presumably calm her emotions before raising her gaze to meet his. “I just… want to know what’s happening to you. I worry about you everyday.”
The male takes a deep breath and clenches his fists at his side as if the action alone will give him all the confidence he needs. “If I do tell you, will you promise you won’t become an Animagus like Sirius, James, and Peter and try to follow me whenever I leave?”
[Y/N]’s brows furrow. “Wait, what?”
Remus’s lips twitch into a smile. He’s always found [Y/N] cute when she’s confused. “Just promise.” His smile disappears and turns back into a nervous frown. “Please.”
The girl in front of him nods, albeit with hesitation. She extends her hand to him, her fingers curled into a fist except her pinky. Remus almost bursts into tears because he’s missed the little things like when she told him pinky promises were as good as an unbreakable vow. After he wraps his pinky around hers, he’s so caught up in his emotions and her homely eyes that he just spits it out.
“I’m a werewolf.”
Silence.
The air is tense between the two and the only thing Remus can hear is his heart drumming against his rib cage.
“Oh.”
Remus’s eyes widen and he swears every organ in his body stopped working. He doesn’t feel anything except shock. “I-I’m sorry, what do you mean ‘Oh’?” he manages out.
“Oh, as in ‘Oh, is that all?’” [Y/N] smiles shyly, making the male’s mouth part in shock.
“[Y/N], I love you, but I just spilled my deepest secret to you and you decide to say ‘Oh, is that all?’”
She steps forward, softly grabbing his hand and holding it with both of hers. “Remus, I don’t care that you’re a werewolf. I love you for you. All of you. Werewolf, too. This doesn’t change my feelings for you.”
He can only stand there, trying to process her response. “So, you don’t think I’m… an abomination?”
“Of course I don’t. You’re Remus Lupin, a genius student and a caring friend to the Marauders. Who I miss, by the way.”
He sighs and takes a deep breath of relief. “I can also be a pretty cool boyfriend if you’ll still have me.”
[Y/N] giggles and it’s music to Remus’s ears. It makes butterflies flutter in his stomach and his heart start racing again.
“I’ll always have you, Remus.”
He grins and envelopes her in a tight hug, lifting her off her feet. “I can’t tell you how much I love you.”
“You don’t need to.” she laughs out while he sets her down. Her hands lay themselves on his chest and her expression shifts from playful to loving. “I already know you do.”
She suddenly swats his chest. “But if you ever ignore me again, I will get Sirius to give you a talking to that lasts for months because I don’t have the heart and he WILL listen to me.”
I just found your blog and I only read "But you didn't" and "He loved her"You have sooooo much talent.❤ keep up with the good work I'm gonna read the rest too of course but I was so amazed by the two thatIhad to tell you immediately how good you are!
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crdencebarebcne replied
hello! im just now seeing this, im sorry! but thank you, i really appreciate it! seriously, i take these to heart so it really makes my day!
I really liked reading Hurt. It's really good! It broke my heart, but I loved it! I was wondering though if next time you could please start a new paragraph when someone new talks. Because it was as a bit hard to read and got really confusing. But the story was great! 😊 I look forward to the 2nd part!
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crdencebarebcne replied
hello friend! i appreciate the criticism (that’s not sarcasm either, i really do appreciate it)! however, im not sure what you mean? like do you mean when remus speaks, hit enter and have it be its own line?
Request: honestly vaguest request ever so sorry but remus luin angst plssss -anon
Warning(s): angst???
Despite their one year of dating, Remus has never even mentioned his condition to [Y/N]. She’s clueless and even the other Marauders are sworn to secrecy. He knows it’s always bothered her that he doesn’t tell her where he goes every full moon and he can’t help but feel a wave of guilt wash over him every time her face falls after he tells her he has to go. The guilt only grows when [Y/N] plasters on a fake smile and tells him to be safe, watching him run off with the other Marauders. Remus knows that hurts her too. The fact that all of their friends know. Yet she doesn’t. Today is the day he decides that he can’t do it to her anymore. He has to end it.
“[Y/N]?” he calls, descending the stairs into the common room. There was chattering voices and many faces around the room, but none of them are who he’s looking for. Yesterday was the first full moon of the month and it absolutely broke his heart when, instead of telling him to be safe, [Y/N] said “I don’t know what’s going on and it’s okay that I don’t, but just know that I worry about you and please come see me when you get back because I kinda hate being ignored for days after you leave.” Which is why he couldn’t keep hurting her anymore. “Remus?” He’s snapped out of his thoughts as [Y/N] walks into the common room, a soft smile on her face. Remus stares at her as she walks toward him. He loves everything about her. Her hair, her eyes, her smile. He’s going to miss it terribly. “How… Uh… How are you?” she says unsurely. Remus feels his heart sink. “I’m fine. Would you mind coming with me for a bit?” Her smile grows and another pang of guilt hits him because he realizes he’s just given her hope. “Of course.”
Remus takes her to the edge of the Black Lake and he can tell [Y/N] is becoming suspicious. The walk was silent and Remus didn’t try to hold her hand like he normally did. He saw her smile fall when he lightly yanked it away from hers. He stands there, looking down and trying to think of what he’s going to say. “Remus, are you okay?” [Y/N] asks quietly, making Remus lift his head and take a deep breath. “I’ve never been one to be straightforward, but I feel there’s no real reason to beat around the bush, so to speak.” [Y/N]’s hands find a place in her pockets as she patiently waits and that alone makes his heart race in fear. Here he is, making her wait for the worst news of both of their lives.
“I’m breaking up with you.”
[Y/N]’s mouth parts and it’s like time freezes because Remus can’t bring himself to say anything else. Instead, he simply stands there, staring at her with fear filled eyes. “W… Why?” she whispers. He takes notice of the tears brimming her eyes and he can’t bear to look at her any longer so he sets his gaze on the trees as if James was going to pop out in stag form to save him. “I just… I don’t… love you like I used to.” It was easier to tell her that than the truth about what he is. He swears he can hear her heart shatter in her chest. Or maybe it’s his own. “W-What did I do?” [Y/N] squeaks out. Remus decides to look at her again, knowing she doesn’t deserve to be ignored. “No! You didn’t-” He stops and takes a breath, feeling himself becoming frantic. “You didn’t do anything.”
[Y/N] scans him up and down with her eyes. “What’s the real reason you’re breaking up with me?” she inquires, tears running freely over her cheeks. “I’ve already told you the reason.” She shakes her head. “Your hands are tapping on your leg and you only do that when you’re lying or omitting part of the truth.” He used to admire how observant she is, but now he resents the trait. “[Y/N], please just trust me this one time.” Something similar to a scoff escapes the female. “This one time? I’ve been trusting you, Remus!” she exclaims, her lips quivering. “You disappear a couple of times a month and I never ask you or the others where you go! You then ignore me for days, saying you don’t want to talk about it and I never question it! I sit in my dorm room and classes, worrying about you! Not knowing if you’re okay or in danger! Everyone but me seems to know what’s going on and it hurts!” Remus feels tears build up in his own eyes because she’s right and he knows it. She’s sacrificed so much for him and he’s done nothing but leave her hanging for half a month with no explanation.
“I’m doing it to protect you!” he yells, but it’s not angry. It’s pleading. Pleading for her to understand why he’s doing this without actually telling her the reason. Pleading for her to accept his action without any justification, something he knows she’s become accustomed to. “Protect me from what, Remus!?” “I’m a we-” He catches himself. His mouth shuts so fast, his teeth begin to hurt. [Y/N] hangs her head, shaking it for a moment. “Even now… After you’ve just broken up with me, you still can’t give me an explanation.” Remus swallows the lump in his throat. “Instead of telling me the truth, you tell me you don’t love me.” She looks up, her [E/C] orbs boring into his and Remus feels as if he’s been stripped naked of all his emotional defenses. “Did you ever?” Her voice is a whisper and the male standing in front of her blinks back tears. “Of course I did. I loved you more than I love myself.” A choked cry escapes [Y/N] and it makes the dam holding Remus’s tears back break, letting a few slip down his cheeks.
“You know what?” she whimpers. “This is for the best.” Remus feels his hands begin to tremble and he clenches them into fists. “I don’t deserve to feel this way anymore.” She stares at him as if she’s looking at him for the last time, her face neutral despite her tears. “Being worried constantly and feeling like I haven’t done enough and that’s why you keep leaving. Feeling neglected and alone because neither you, nor James, or Sirius, or Peter will tell me anything.” She pauses. “I suffered through those feelings because I love you.” The words Remus has left unsaid for a year, but have always felt in his heart now hang in the air and he’s almost tempted to spill everything to her. But a voice inside his mind reminds him that this is indeed for the best. [Y/N] will be safer this way. So he doesn’t respond. He’s said his part, now it’s time for [Y/N] to accept it and move on. “You really have nothing to say?” Remus shakes his head, his gaze drifting to the leaves on the ground. “Fine.” she states. He feels her hand lay on his shoulder and he raises his gaze to meet hers. “Just… Be safe, alright?” Her voice cracks mid sentence and it only makes Remus’s tears fall faster. He nods, knowing if he tries to speak, he’ll choke up.
And just like that, [Y/N] turns around and walks back to the castle. Even when she’s out of his sight, Remus can hear her soft sobs and it only serves as a reminder that he broke the heart of most likely the only girl who will ever love him with all she has. He tries to remind himself that he let her go to protect her, but the hole in his heart doesn’t go away. He stands there, fists clenched and mind reeling with things he could’ve done better during their relationship, anything that would’ve made this decision easier. But what’s done is done and he knows it.
‘That doesn’t make it hurt any less.’
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part two will be up soon! thank you for requesting, anon! i hope you enjoy it. it’s been a while and i’m sorry to the people who’s requests i haven’t gotten to yet. some prompts are easier to write than others and i get writer’s block a lot, if im being completely honest. but i hope all of you have a lovely day! -mary
If you’re ever going through a rough time, remember that Remus Lupin spent 12 years alone, in poverty, hating himself. If he can make it through that, you can make it through whatever hardships you’re facing.
